I'm trying not to think about the debt I'm collecting due to school and my personal life. I'm not irresponsible, especially when it comes to money, but I need some sort of quality of life too, right? That's not too much to ask, is it?
I'm just moving forward.
I'm not trying to think about everything and everyone I will be leaving behind in the next year if everything goes to plan.
I'm just moving forward.
I'm not trying to think about the potential friendships and intimate relationships I've been denying because I just don't care.
I'm just moving forward.
I'm not trying to think about the perfect person, the one I love, and how I'll never wake up to see her sleeping face, hear her steady breathing, smell her hair, feel her warm body, or taste her lips ever again.
I'm just moving forward.
I'm not trying to think about today when I had to pull off the freeway to have a break-down in a parking lot so I wouldn't swerve into another car to take myself and another life out of this world for good.
I'm just moving forward.
I'm not trying to think about the habits I have that counteract the productive habits I've recently taken up.
I'm just moving forward.
I'm not trying to think about how although I'm moving forward, but could care less if my life just ended due to an accident. Because, God knows, I don't, and never will, have it in me to end it myself.
So really... I'm just moving... and that's about it.
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